Cillian is 4!

I’ve been a parent for four years now. Wow.

I the last four years have been the craziest of my life. Where do I even begin?

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He was the most precious baby, I didn’t even know I could love someone so much. It physically hurt how much I loved him. He made me such a softy.

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His first year was hard. He spent his first night home in a light box for jaundice. I was distraught. I wanted to hold my baby but he had to stay in the box when he wasn’t eating or being changed. He slept in our bed his whole first year of life. I couldn’t sleep unless he was right next to me so I could hear him breathing. He woke us up every four hours to eat, when he started walking he got into everything and he had the biggest personality I had ever seen in such a small person.

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Watching him learn and grow has been amazing. I understand now why they call it a miracle. You have never witnessed innocence until you’ve spent time with a child. I can’t believe such purity even exists. He has just opened my eyes so much.

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The things he says are so funny, his imagination is wonderful. He wants to be friends with everyone he meets, he smiles so easily. He has the sweetest heart.

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He loves cats, bugs, cars, pasta and going to the park. He loves playing with other kids and having fun. He doesn’t like meat, swimming pools and being held upside down. He’s excited about starting school and he loves to learn.

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I can’t believe my baby is four years old. It won’t be long before he’s an adult and I’m trying to soak up all the time with him being little as I can. Happy birthday Little Boy. I love you soooooo much and I always will.

New Series and What is Leaving

I have been going over my lists for blog posts and I have realized there are a few things I want to change. I know at the beginning of the year I told you guys about some new things I was adding to my blog so I thought I would do that again.

So a few things are staying like Toddlers Around Town, The New Thing I Tried This Month, Short Story of the Month and the Book Challenge/Book Reviews of the month. These posts are fun for me to do and I really enjoy doing them. I realize this month I wasn’t able to get a short story up but I’ve been pretty busy so I will have one up next month.

Series that I won’t be doing any more are the Dream Series, The Days of My Life and my Religion Series. All of these were fun while they lasted but I’m just not getting any enjoyment out of them anymore. I have one last Dream Series post going up next month but it will be the last for a while. I’m not saying they are going away forever but they will be gone for at least a while.

I do have some new series that I’m excited about. Hopefully you all will enjoy them. I’m going to have a monthly makeup post, I enjoy coming up with new looks and I want to get some good use out the eyeshadow I have. I have also noticed you all seem to enjoy them as well so hopefully I don’t disappoint you. I also want to try new makeup and give reviews on it. I’m also going to do a series on serial killers. Shocker, I know. It’s going to be called My Favorite Serial Killer and each month I will pick one to talk about. I’m kind of a psychology junkie so I’m planning to stick to that part of the discussion. I of course am not a licensed professional, I’m just going to discuss any research I find.

Well there you have it! I hope you’re excited about the new stuff to come. I sure am. I hope you all have a good week!

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My Writing Process

I might have done a post like this before but honestly I’m too lazy to check. Even if I have my process has changed a bit and I wanted to talk about it.

When it comes to blog posts I google or Pinterest ideas for topics. I have some ideas of what I want to do but to be honest, trying to come up with topics for posting three times a week (12 posts in a month) the well runs dry sometimes. I have found a lot of good topics and some I even tweak a little to fit me or my audience. I also keep a list and it evolves over time. When I finally sit down to write a post I either will talk about what is on my mind or I answer the question of the topic I found.

Finding new topics is a fun challenge though. It gets me thinking and it can sometimes change my perspective on something I thought I knew. For blog posts I don’t really have a set way of writing. I just write. I go back and change things as I go and when I’m done, I’m done. I try not to think too long about it or spend too much time writing it because this is something I do for fun. I want to keep it as easy as possible and feel like I have to over do it. The friendships I’ve made doing this has become more of a reason to keep doing this than trying to push information.

When it comes to writing short stories I of course do things differently. First I get inspiration for the story, whether it’s from another story I heard or a dream I have or if my imagination is in a particular, crazy mood. I take a tiny idea and push it around in my mind and see if anything comes of it. Then I start writing. I don’t ever know where it’ll go until I start writing. It develops on it’s own. I just write until I get a firm grasp on where it’s going then I go back and fix it to feel cohesive and functional.

When I write novels, which I’m still working on, I think a little harder on it. I get the idea and I outline. I have to have a clear outline. It’s not like writing a short story where it can just go where it wants. I have to keep a guideline or the story can get away from me. I go one stage at a time. I try to go in order because again, the story will get away from me if I don’t. Sometimes I have to take a break and write a scene for the middle or the end. It helps to give me ideas when I feel stuck. I have a novel that I’ve been working on for a couple years now and it’s taking a while because I procrastinate something horrible. Hopefully I can get back on it soon.

I hope this post gave you some insight to how I do what I do. For the writers out there: what is your writing process? How do you stay motivated and get the writing done?

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The New Thing I Tried This Month! May 2019

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So I’m cheating a little bit. I actually did this last month but I figured since I did a few new things last month it would be okay to talk about one of them this month.

This month’s new thing is: I went to my first drag show!

I went to a bar here in Oklahoma City called The Boom. I went to their Sunday Gospel Brunch with my friend Christian and it was an absolute blast. I loved it.

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I had the breakfast burger. It had bacon and cheese with a fried egg. It came with au gratin hashbrowns. The food was phenomenal.

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Christian had the french toast plate with bacon and eggs. We were so hungry by the time we got our food we ate it so fast.

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The show was great. It was hilarious. My cheeks hurt so much from laughing. We had such a great time. I even got teepeed.

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The atmosphere was great, the food was amazing and the show was the best. I give a huge thumbs up for my first drag show experience. I will definitely be going again.

Toddlers Around Town

The hubby and I took the boys to Martin Nature Park in Oklahoma City.

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There’s a cute little playground for the kids to get out some energy.

There’s a visitor center that is air conditioned to give you a break from the heat as well as educate you on the weather, animals and plant life in the park.

This is one of my favorites because of the nature part. The trails are perfect for feeling like you’re walking through a forest. I would not recommend taking a stroller down these trails though. We learned that the hard way.

There was a couple look outs.

There was a wonderful river to see. I loved just standing and listening to the rushing water. I wanted to get in it so bad.

We saw a cute little snake on a tree. My husband thought it was a vine at first.

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And I thought this was a cute little witch’s nook.

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We had a good time, got some sun, fresh air and exercise. The boys were worn out and next time we go we are definitely leaving the stroller at home.

The Days of My Life: Episode 4

April 5, 2019

I have not been writing a whole lot lately. I have been working on new styles of necklaces for my online store as well as making a whole bunch of stuff for the craft show I’m doing on the 27th. It’s been crazy around here. I got enrolled in school today too so come August I will be back in college. I just have  few basics to finish up then I will be moving on to University where I plan to major in English or creative writing. Not sure yet but I have some time to decide. Cillian starts preschool this fall as well so we’ll both be in school. To be honest I have been feeling really overwhelmed. When I’m overwhelmed I tend to just shut down and focus on what I’m doing. I tend to ignore people and other things that my brain doesn’t deem important, like cleaning. I just get hyper focused and my brain can’t take anything in until I finish all the things I need to do. Even writing this post is hard because I know I need to go outside and take advantage of the beautiful sunshine to take photos of my new jewelry to post on my Shopify website. I have new styles coming next month.

April 6, 2019

So I started collecting crystals this year and I have to say I don’t know why I didn’t start sooner. They are so beautiful and I want as many as I can get. I can’t wait to buy a house so I can really decorate with them. There are a lot of people who believe in healing energies from crystals and I’m not saying there aren’t. I just like them because they’re pretty and if they just happen to help the energy flow in my house then bonus. I am not against anything bringing positive energy into my life or taking bad energy out. I might also be slightly addicted to bidding for these babies on Ebay.

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April 9, 2019

Today was a fun day. The boys and I went to the park with my friend Karen and her son, Elijah. We also had pizza for lunch. Once we got home the boys were crazy. You would think that getting their energy out and getting fresh air would wear them out but no. They get all wound up. Felix finally took a nap and so did I. It wasn’t much of a nap really because Cillian is going through a bad boy stage right now and does everything he knows he’s not supposed to. I’m about ready to pull all my hair out with this kid. He just has so much attitude lately. I’ve heard that’s what happens when they’re four or almost four. They start to get this independence and they think they don’t have to listen. I have to repeat myself with him because he blatantly ignores me, or he’ll tell me no or he hates me. He talks back and he is always huffy. I’m so glad he’s starting school this fall. I think because we’re always around each other we just get on each other’s nerves. I think we just need some time apart.

April 23, 2019

I found this large man’s shirt at the thrift store yesterday. I really liked the pattern of it, it was too loud for my husband’s taste so I got it for myself and turned it into a crop top. It turned out really cute and it only cost me $3! I love stuff like that. I also found an old beaded necklace there for $5 that I took apart and plan to use the pieces in other necklaces I’m going to make. I want to have a “one of a kind” collection on my online store so I can have just special pieces that you can’t find anywhere else. I never thought of myself as a crafty person but apparently I am and I freaking enjoy it. (I can make a mean scrapbook as well.) My craftiness will come in handy when my boys get older and have class projects. I can’t wait. I made this necklace the other day and I love it so much I’m keeping it for myself. 

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Isn’t it pretty? I’m telling you, it’s getting harder to let certain pieces go. I just want to keep them all. I need to wear it and give it a test drive.

April 30, 2019

Well my craft show was not a total failure. I made a profit of $35, which is better than nothing. It would have been nice to make more for six hours of work but it was my first go and I learned a lot. So I guess you could say I also earned some experience as well as my small profit. I wanted to go into it without getting disappointed but I just couldn’t help it. I plan to keep going though. I will not give up. I also got a really bad sunburn while we were out there. We forgot sunblock so we roasted. By we I mean my husband and I. He helped me work my first craft show and I was so glad he was there with me. I just love that man. 

Just a Mom Posting About Being a Mom

Being a mom is my biggest job, so of course I like to talk about it. Over the last year I’ve posted about my struggles and it’s always good to look back on them. If you haven’t read them I thought I’d highlight a few. Maybe you’re a mom as well and you need to know you’re not alone. Maybe you’re not a mom but have been thinking about it. Either way I hope these posts help you.

  1. The Best Parts of Being a Mom
  2. Being a Parent Sucks Sometimes
  3. Anxiety and Being a Mom
  4. 5 Ways Being a Mom Has Changed Me
  5. 3 Things I Learned About Being a Working Mom

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