As you saw earlier in the month I started my own business. That’s the new thing I tried this month and let me tell you it was so exciting. But also, let me tell you a secret: I almost didn’t do it.
Let me tell you why:
To be honest I was scared. I wasn’t scared that it would fail. In fact I expected it to. I already had it in my mind that it wasn’t going to work, that yes I would have a few sales and then the excitement would die down then everyone would go back to their lives and then all the work I’d done would have been in vain. I expected that because every time I have high hopes for something it never turns out the way I think it will. I didn’t want to get my hopes up. So I wasn’t afraid of failure, I was afraid that it would get too big to handle. So far that has not been the case, obviously, I’ve just started. It would be great though if it did take off because that’s what we all want for ourselves and any business we start. Just like this blog. I hope that I get lots of readers and that my words are read by many but we all have to start somewhere. I don’t make money doing this (yet) so it’s a little different than Dahlia Lux. I just don’t want to let others down. I’m afraid that if I get swamped with orders that I won’t be able to keep up and then my buyers might have a bad experience. I just want my customers to be happy with the things I make and to get it in a timely manner. I want my business to thrive and to have some longevity. I want to be my own boss and have the freedom to work from home so that I can be here with my children. As crazy as they make me I know they are only little for so long. Once they’re grown up these times will be gone and I’ll only have my memories of them being little. That’s why this business is so important to me. It gives me the one thing I want most in the world, time with my kids.
Despite the fear I’m just glad I did it. I’m proud of myself for pushing past that fear and I’m proud of the work I do. I’m still scared but at least I’m not letting that fear stop me from doing something I really enjoy.