January 1, 2019
So I’m a stay at home mom now. It happened unexpectedly. I was let go at my job, it was a seasonal position that I wasn’t expecting to lose until at least June so this was a shock to me. After doing the numbers and seeing what was left over after all the bills were paid we can make it on just my husbands salary but it will be super tight for a while. We will have a very strict budget at least for the next six months so hopefully I don’t go crazy from boredom. I know that if I can just keep my sights set on the big picture and just be patient we will make it. I just have to take it one day at a time. Don’t be surprised to see some stay at home mom posts or how to live with a tight budget posts on my blog. *wink wink*
In other news, it’s a new year so that’s exciting. I feel a lot lighter now that 2018 has ended. It wasn’t a terrible year, definitely better than others, but it’s nice that it’s over and I think for the first time in my adult life I don’t dread the year ahead of me. We got rid of a lot of our debt last year and I’m not pregnant, so that’s a plus. I have a lot planned this year so hopefully I can still make those things happen now that I don’t have a job. It’s weird to admit that, that I don’t have a job. I’ve always had a job, since I was sixteen. I feel a bit guilty not contributing financially to my household. I know I can be helpful in other ways, like maintaining the house and taking care of the kids and running all the errands but I still feel a nagging feeling of not working. Maybe it will go away over time. I will be back in school this fall so I’ll feel more like I’m contributing because I’ll be working towards a better future for us.
I’ve always thought of myself as a career woman though. I guess I just accepted a long time ago that I will never be rich and just get to lay around all day doing nothing. I’ve always known I have to work for a living so it doesn’t bother me to work. I actually do like to work so long as the work is worthwhile. If it’s thankless and menial then of course I don’t want to do it, who does? It is nice though to have more time for my writing, reading and crafts. I need to make a scrapbook of my kids to, maybe learn some new recipes. I just have to find free or cheap ways to entertain myself, to distract me from the fact that we are super broke and can’t do a whole lot right now.
My allergies are also bothering me, which to be honest has made my mood worse. I hate coughing, sneezing and not being able to breathe out of my nose. Ya know, like everyone else in the world. It usually lasts about a week so I still have a few days of this wretchedness. My youngest is suffering to, the poor kid is too young to take any medicine so he has to suffer. All I can do for him is put chest rub on him at night and suction his nose during the day. He’ll get through it though.
January 3, 2019
So a little bit about my daily routine:
Usually my kids wake me up about 7:30 every morning. I get them up and changed, I feed and water them and put on some cartoons. I get myself dressed and sometimes I get to eat breakfast. On post days I get on my computer and make sure that my scheduled posts have indeed posted and then I share it on my socials. I check the WordPress reader for fellow blogger posts, I read, like and comment. I try to do all of this in a timely manner but I am always interrupted by my kids several times before I can get a full post read.
I put the youngest down for a nap around 10 and then I can get some writing done. I like to write posts a few weeks in advance and schedule them, it’s just easier for me. I check my emails and I also figure out all the things I need to do for the day. I have a list of blog posts for the month so I have to look them over and see what I need to work on next. I also try to get some reading in while the tinier human snoozes. My life is pretty slowed down now and we don’t get out much unless we have an appointment or we go to the library. In a way I think that’s good because I’m always focusing on the next thing and looking to the future. Maybe now I can focus more on the present and just chill out.
January 10, 2019
Well the allergies are gone but the littlest has a fever now. The cold months are the worst for sickness. He’s being super clingy but I honestly don’t mind it. It’s nice to hold my baby close and comfort him because I know it won’t be like this forever. My oldest is not happy about little brother getting all the attention though, so that’s fun. (not) Having two small kids is a challenge. I wish I would have waited until my oldest had been a little older when I had my second, like closer to four and potty trained. Oh well, you live and you learn, except I’m not having anymore kids. Sometimes I do wish I could have one more. It’s not really an option for us to have another since kids are expensive and my uterus is a shredded mess from two c-sections. It would actually be really dangerous for me and a baby if I were to get pregnant again. It would have been nice to have a girl though. The old wives tales say that if your baby’s first word is daddy then you will have a boy next. If their first word is mama then you’ll have a girl next. Cillian’s first word was ‘dada’, hence Felix. Felix’s first word was ‘mama’ so according to the old wives I would have a girl next. Unfortunately she will never come to pass.